Life is so unfair

Life........
its so unfair.....

Were we given a choice before we were born? Where we would be born, to whom we would be born, what would be our skin color, what would be our caste, what would be our country, what would be our skills or talents.....etc etc.......

Is'nt it unfair that some people have luxury of a good life even before they were born and some of them dont even have food to eat when they are born. Nobody would want to be born to lead a life filled with misery. Even if we were given an option who would have chosen a life of misery...

Life is so unbalanced, ununiform for diff persons.

The worst part is even our mentality is not under our control...it was just given to us....
Some are lucky some are'nt.....

THE PAST ........ my enemy

broken dreams, unfulfilled desires, goals which were not reached, regrets .... life becomes miserable when one's life is filled with these...the past becomes a constant reminder of the places where things went wrong and the things which went wrong...it starts suffocating every moment of the present. present becomes just another moment which slips away quietly....

THE DREADFUL CALL CENTER IDEA :)

A day after the awful news a dreadful idea creeps into my head :)

Why not join a call center :) i can earn some quick bucks and keep myself busy and learn some communication skills :) why not ???? yeah why not ...
so the plot was hatched, the print out of my downscaled resume was ready (yaav karmanappa i had to downscale my resume drastically to fit in!!)

12:00--Outside the HTMT global solutions building....still pondering whether or not to go inside
12:05--A middle aged security person in the entrance and there are a few ppl who were visibly waiting for their turn in the walkin..........i got upto the security person....."sir i want to apply for the customer relations officer post"......"wats ur qualification" he asked even without seeing me......."BE"....."yaavdu??"......."bachelors in engineering!!"........"engineeringa ???"....."haudu!!".......silence for a few seconds.......his eyes gaping wide........"yellu kelsa siglillva??"........wat more insult do i want.......i gulped in.....and said.."illa maneli prob ide"......he called me to a side......."PUC matra thorsi , BE andre kelsa kodalla ".........waaaaaaaaaaaat !!!i thought PUC rules here !!!......another guy joined him and asked"atlease call center experience idya? idre tl o pl o ag bahudu aadre BE navrge customer support gella haakolla"...
12:15--the bell rank loud and clear in my head "maga escape agu...this is not the place where u belong".........then i came home and had a hot tea and thought........." wat a dreadful idea it was :)[although my head was still thinking of the quick bucks and the communication skills thingy:)]"

The wait got extended ..........

DATES ANNOUNCED !!!!

The suspense finally unravels !!!! ELXSI finally announced the doj !!!! yahoo :) .... but !!!!.........my dates has not been announced :( .......its a confusion whether to cry or to be happy , cry coz my dates has not been announced happy coz elxsi has finally made up its mind and 'decided' the dates.
The wait has been extended now !!!!! THe thought of wanting a break for some time is slowly starting to get replaced by a painful wait :(
Breaka ??? EE breakinda ondu break kodappa devre :(

The feeling to see how the work environment feels and how i ll be when i become another drop in the gr8 ocean called the 'corporate world' is growing intense by the day....Back of the mind the guilt that i dint join tribi is growing :( ... atleast i would have had a job at hand now if i had joined :( :( ... stupid me............

My dear rakhi elder sis pragna shouted at me "Mandya thanka hogi vapas bandidyalla kaili iddid company, tribi na bityalla , gubailu kano neenu ... anubavisu ivaga"..........meekly i replied "nangen gothithu ee thara aguthe antha...septembernalli dates baruthe antha ankondidddee :("

gattu -- " who is responsible for this ? the co. , the coll or us ? this is ridiculious !!!" .....i replied cooly --- " its our bad luck maga".........but then i thought ........is not our coll responsible for not allowing us to write any company further after getting into a 'core' company??? or is it ?? gothilla :( .......is not our company responsible for delaying our dates ???? how to say ? they could be in trouble na...they too cant be blamed either....finally are we responsible ?? :) .... maybe yes maybe not....maybe yes coz we chose the company...maybe not coz nothing is under our control now :(.......then i thought ... yes its just our bad luck :(

it was a cold soundless dry night yesterday....all of a sudden a bomb drops " maga nan thale kett hogide, en maadodu ivaga?"anantha's msg !! half asleep i read the msg and slept like a log :) wat can i say??naane thale kedskond idini :(

In the midst of all the chaos my parents told me cutely.....just be aramse u need a break !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hmmmmmmmmmmmm yup i need a break outta alla these !!! god help me ...